Videos!

Here are some videos that I really like this week.




Peter and Kerry - Teardrops (live) from Miles Langley on Vimeo.

Run!!

 Bianka

You choose

These days my little nephew (He's the one of the picture)  is staying at home, my mom, siblings and me are taking care of him. He's definitely an earthquake!! But we love him so much, he has a strong personality and he cares about everything surround him, but most of the times he wants to be center of the universe and doesn't listen to anyone, but in my house you have to follow the rules.

Today, my nephew asked me something that let me shocked, he asked me about my ex boyfriend, he said that he was worried having not seeing him at home or with me. He said "Where is agustado? Let's call him and invite him to play with us... I said to my little nephew that I was no longer friend with Agustado (That's the way my nephew call my ex) and I can't call him because he's busy and he told me "But aunt, we can wait for him until he's no longer busy" I told him again that he is living in another country and he told me "but I saw him days ago"... I had no words to explain that we broke up and he won't visit to us anymore.

So far it's hard for me when people ask me about my ex boyfriend  because they keep asking why we broke up, so I'm trying to get over this and I don't want anyone in my life until I feel confidence with myself and leave the past behind me. And no, I don't need a boyfriend right now, I know that I'm 25 but I don't care if I don't get marry or if the train will leave me (it's common in my culture to use this phrase "El tren te va a dejar") and I don't want to be with someone that I don't like just because I'm worry to be alone, if I'm going to be alone I will be pleased I did not marry to someone just for the society pressure, I don't feel afraid to be alone, I feel afraid about the ignorance that make people mediocre and frustrated. You choose if you have a boyfriend or a gilfriend, you choose if you want to have a family, you choose if you want to live or die. It's up to you.

Kiss in your soul.

Bianka

Jazz day

Listen to this list, I found on eightracks, it's called Heave Twisted jazz

Heavy Twisted Jazz from redbatrecords on 8tracks Radio.

Bianka

Disappearances

 Today I did many things, well I did a few things but in my situation I consider few as many. I read a literary essay about a chilean writer called Claudio Bertoni, it was interesting because it was about the existence of God and bad theology, the essay was completely atheist and agnostic but very amusing. I believe in God but I don't believe in religions, God is in me, in the air I breathe, in the tears I cry, in the laugh I enjoy... Well I can't say in words what is God to me, so I'll tell you that God is my inspiration to fight every single day for my freedom.


Then I watched an episode of a program called Meet the missing; the episode was about a man who suddenly dissapears leaving no trace, he left his car and money. His parents thinks that Tim wanted to be away from his religious group who were controling his life, that happened in 2004 and his family doesn't know where he is, the only trace that they had is that he took his metal suitcase that contained many of his writings.

Have you ever wanted to escape and leave your family and everything you know in order to feel free and happy?

Bianka

The artist is present

Source: hotparade.tumblr.com via Fer on Pinterest

Today I watched a film called "The artist is present". It was about the life and work of one of the most unusual and divine artist, that artist is Marina Abramovic. I was so shocked because I've never seen such a disturbing work, I say disturbing in a good way. Marina lives and breathe the art, she makes her life an art; she hurted herself in order to show the conection between the artist and the art, you have to have confidence with yourself when you make art. She performs her art, and it's such a wonderful experience to watch her and her work. If you want to know more about her you should watch her film, you will love it or you will hate it or maybe you'll get confused.

I was thinking about  the art perfomance and it came many ideas as I was at the church feeling tired, about what? well, I don't know... But what I was thinking was how far the art  can go. I imagined a scene about a person who commits suicide in front of people in a white room... That will be art? Or am I really twisted about the suicide idea?




Here you have thefilm trailer.



Eat grapes with cheese and mushrooms.

Bianka

Retro Graphic design

Here you have some retro designs by wonderful graphic designers, I found the pictures via pinterest

Source: dribbble.com via Brian on Pinterest

Source: dribbble.com via Brian on Pinterest

Source: google.com via Branimira on Pinterest

Source: blog.smartpress.com via Branimira on Pinterest

Bianka

Red vintage dress

Last saturday I went to a special dinner with my family and I wore this lovely red dress, it's vintage and it belonged to my mom. Here I am trying to pose as a pin up model... I did my best... and I  know that I need more practice.

Have a nice saturday afternoon and eat pizza!!

Bianka

Paloma Faith

Source: google.com via Daniella on Pinterest

Paloma Faith is a british singer, she has a unique style. I love her red hair, her hairdos and her dresses.... Well, I love everything about her, she's a wonderful singer watch Paloma's videos on her youtube channel.

This video is called Stone Cold Sober, is one of my favourites, because sometimes I feel awkward when I go to parties.




Bianka

What I'm thinking right now

I want many things today! What do you want right now?

Here are some pictures that describe my thoughts somehow. I found them on pinterest.

Source: 26.media.tumblr.com via Justyna on Pinterest

Source: lollipopscards.com via Caroline on Pinterest

Source: all-things-bright-and-beyootiful.tumblr.com via Rui on Pinterest

Source: theglitterguide.tumblr.com via Toni on Pinterest

Source: usmasala.blogspot.com via Janie on Pinterest

Source: thevow0.blogspot.com via Vallie on Pinterest

Source: deniseholmesillustration.squarespace.com via Tze on Pinterest

Source: via Camille on Pinterest

Source: shore-line.tumblr.com via Ema on Pinterest

Source: 27.media.tumblr.com via Joey on Pinterest

Source: marialaterza.blogspot.com via Norman on Pinterest

Source: community.apartmenttherapy.com via Diana on Pinterest

Source: debbos.tumblr.com via Maria on Pinterest

Source: modernhepburn.tumblr.com via Simone on Pinterest

Source: kimberlypesch.tumblr.com via Melanie on Pinterest

Source: ohhellofriendblog.com via Anna on Pinterest

Source: musicroom.fr via Danielle on Pinterest

Source: lovetwenty.com via Emily on Pinterest

 I decided not to feel hate.
Bianka

Just in my dreams

 I wrote this poem today in english, I didn't translate it. This is the first poem that I write in this language, I hope you like it.

Whisper a name you never mentioned before.

Just in my dreams
 
It's difficult to discover the truth,
It's difficult to forget,
It's hard to let go

Nothing is the same,
the dream is over,
There is no love anymore,
There never was...
 
I don't want any victim
I don't want any killer,
I don't expect anything,
not even a message from you.

I asked you once not twice, no three times
Do you want to see me? Do you still love me? Why you're not with me?
Those are questions that I won't ask you ever,
Just in my dreams...

Bianka

Why do you love her?

That's the question I made to my dear friend Sebastián, you should meet him he is so amazing and he has a good taste in movies. Today we were chatting and I asked him many things about his girlfriend, she is so cute and has a lovely smile, she's not my friend but I like her. They make a beautiful couple and I wish someday have a relationship like that, you should see them!! Well they now, live in Europe, they love very much and their love is really strong, they kept his relationship even in the distance :)

I'm wondering if love would last forever and if you can fall in love many times.

Have you ever felt in love? And if you are in love, Which things make you love that person?

Make sparkles!

Bianka

Talking about stones

I simply love Mario Benedetti, his poems are amazing, they touch and caress your soul... When you read them you believe in love and you begin to dream with the love of your life... We don't know if we're going to meet them but it's good to dream.

 Here's a poem by Mario Benedetti, it's called Little Stones at My Window. And for the people who want to know why the name of my blog, I got inspired on this poem.
 
 Feel happy about the truth, open your eyes.

Bianka

Little Stones at My Window

Once in a while
joy throws little stones at my window
it wants to let me know that it's waiting for me
but today I'm calm
I'd almost say even-tempered
I'm going to keep anxiety locked up
and then lie flat on my back
which is an elegant and comfortable position
for receiving and believing news

who knows where I'll be next
or when my story will be taken into account
who knows what advice I still might come up with
and what easy way out I'll take not to follow it

don't worry, I won't gamble with an eviction
I won't tattoo remembering with forgetting
there are many things left to say and suppress
and many grapes left to fill our mouths

don't worry, I'm convinced
joy doesn't need to throw any more little stones
I'm coming
I'm coming.

Mario Benedetti

Let's swing!

Here's a swing playlist that I found on 8tracks. I hope you like it :)

Monday Night Swing Session #1 @ Spirit from David Planella on 8tracks Radio.

Alasitas

Yesterday I went with my friends and my siblings to the Alasitas, it's a fair where you can find anything in a tiny size, it has something to do with the  andean catholic syncretism. We had a great time, then we went to eat hamburguers and laugh about everything.

Here are some pictures.

Have a nice day, right now I'm about to make a decision. I'll tell you in a few days.

Bianka

Postcards

I love postcards and I like to collect them. I found on Pinterest these lovely ones:

Source: flickr.com via Daisy Regina on Pinterest

Source: holyforestfairy.tumblr.com via Jacque on Pinterest

Source: google.com via Postable on Pinterest

Source: postercabaret.com via Ann on Pinterest

Source: thefreebitchproject.tumblr.com via Frank on Pinterest

Source: tuckdb.org via Patti on Pinterest

Source: graphicsfairy.blogspot.com via Dana's on Pinterest

Source: google.ca via kelly on Pinterest

Enjoy the garden alone

Yesterday I chatted with and old school friend, he asked to me for some advices. He quarrelled with his girlfriend because he was drunk at her birthday party and did a horrible spectacle in front of her friends and family... It was not the first time. My friend was really sad because he wants to change and he loves her girlfriend very much, and he wants to be with her. When he asked me what should he do I didn't know how to answer because right now I don't know anything about relationships, I broke up with my boyfriend 5 months ago and I don't know how to keep a good relationship because I'm so dissapointed about love relationships that I can't give any advice, I don't know if I'm going to have another boyfriend and I'm really confused and I feel that I'm passing trough a crisis. So I didn't give him any advice to make better his relationship with his girlfriend but I told him to analize himself and look for what's the problem in him. I think I'm not good giving advices....

 Today I went to a Café called Espresso, I ordered a delicious Frappuccino with cream and chocolate, I wrote a few things about that moment and also I wrote two paragraphs of my tale. Before I go, I want to publish my thesis and my tale, and I have to hurry up, the year is about to end.

Enjoy the solar eclipse and feel a broken dance.

Bianka 

Big Tree

Today as I was reading the Modcloth blog  I read a post about a band called Big Tree, I listened their songs and I really loved it, especially This New Year.

Listen to them, it's a wonderful band.

Caresses your arms to your face.

Bianka 

 

katkera marraskuu

I've been thinking about someone every single day that I just realized that this person became into a stranger, memories are all over my house and in the air I breathe... Sometimes I think all the memories are dreams. These days I've been feeling sad and I wanted to revive something that is dying... I want to cry because nothing is going to be the same and I regret  having been so naive and believing that things would be eternal...  I really want to close a door but it's hard for me to let that person go, I try over and over again  and there is always hope, a bad hope, the path has split and I keep walking behind the past... 

This month is bitter and it's time to let the river flow and keep walking in the forest that I made, it's hard and there is no hope...

Watch this video, I like Harmaja because I love finnish language and I know that I will be there someday.



Kiss in the eye, kiss in your soul.

Bianka

It hurts to be alive

Yesterday my pet Sasha was injured by a car, her leg was bleeding, she was crying, I never heard such a horrible cry before. I was sad because, I was blaming me for not having care her. I love my pet very much, she is cute and I was crying because she can't speak and she was only crying if I could have done anything to make her feel better I would have done that. The vet sutured the leg and gave us a kind of spray that heals her wounds, he said that Sasha's wound would probably get infected because they're on a side that is contact to dust and everything. She's sleeping in our living room and we don't want her to go out to the garden, I'm so worry about her, her wounds still bleed just a little, but she's uncomfortable wearing a cone that protects her wounds. I'm praying for her, because I would be very sad if something happen to her, she's my baby, I love her very much. I cried a lot yesterday I couldn't even sleep to watch her.

When my mom and I were carrying her to the vet, we needed a taxi but no taxi wanted to take us because they don't like pets hair and her wounds would stain to their seats... We were begging to the taxi drivers to help us, but they didn't listen to us, we walked a lot, and I was so mad, so sad I was wondering how there are so many bad people in the world who didn't care about animals, I felt so alone, I really wanted a hug....

Sometimes I think that is worthless to make a revolution, that this life is pure shit but then I stop and think that we can make a difference in spite all evil that world has. There are bad people but also there are wonderful people who love pets and help to others.

Make a colorful bracelet and give it to someone you like very much

Bianka

Tattoos

I want to have a tattoo, but I don't want a tattoo just because I'm thinking I will be cool with that, no, for me a tattoo represents a journey that you won't forget, something that makes you remember wich is your north. I want a bird tattoo because, birds are free when they fly and I always look for freedom, also this tattoo will represent my independence and of course that I will pay with the money I make. I don't pretend to be cool or original having a tattoo, no I want the tattoo because I want to remember every single day that I'm free and strong and I'm not worry about the future and my only enemy are my fears.

 I don't like people who judge people with tattoos and they don't give them jobs because they think they're evil or gangs. You don't have to judge people just for the fact that they dress or look like different to everybody.

Here are some pictures of tattoos via Pinterest

Source: tumblr.com via Kim on Pinterest

Source: barbarabuena.tumblr.com via Barbara on Pinterest

Source: sometimessweet.blogspot.com via Caroline on Pinterest

Source: everythingyoulovetohate.tumblr.com via artnau on Pinterest

Source: tumblr.com via Clyde on Pinterest

Source: Uploaded by user via Dillan on Pinterest

Source: davidhale.org via charm on Pinterest

Source: bomladrao.tumblr.com via José on Pinterest

Source: brisaink.com.br via Barbara on Pinterest

Source: tradtattoos.com via Felicia on Pinterest

Cook mango with strawberry pancakes. 

Bianka

Dozy

I have a stomach ache and I'm sleepy...

Here's a video of Hellogoodbye, I hope you like it.



 Bianka

Tiataco

Today my sister, my friend Nona and I went to Tiataco, a small town in the outskirts of the city of Cochabamba, we went there to see the Mast'aku, is a celebration where you can see all the ceremonies that they do after All Saint day, they make several tables, full of food that the dead used to like.You can see, the wallunk'a that is a kind of ceremony to get a boyfriend or something like that, they do a lot of wallunk'as in the outskirts of Cochabamba and the cholitas (girls who are from the country) swing and they have to catch a basket of flowers that is hung in the middle of two big trees. You can see a lot of things there, they have typical food, chicha and guarapo (if you ever visit Cochabamba you have to go to the villages and try on these wonderful drinks that are made with corn and strawberry), it was nice day, I had fun. 

Here are some pictures 

 The Wallunk'a.

 The Mast'aku.

Look at these interesting cups.

 The dough for the t'antawawas, a kind of biscuit with different forms, since babies, stairs, animals, etc.

Nona and I made T'antawawas, Nona made a clown and I made a pencil and a sheet?

 Nona and I.

My sister Yhun and Nona.

Draw shoes in the wall of your bathroom.

Bianka