After six years

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When I was 20 a friend of mine read for me a passage of a book called Rayuela by the argentinian writer Julio Cortázar, it seemed very interesting  but I didn't pay attention to that until now, six years later I started to read it and it was a unique experience having read the same passage that my friend read for me, I remember very well, it was a friday night, we were sitting in the cafeteria of the university, we were four, my friend Roberto, Alejandra (the one who read the book), a girl that I didn't like it and me, the lights were fews and I remember my book's friend, it was lined by a beautiful lavander color paper, we were just ten minutes because it was late and I was worrying about not taking the bus early. Oh...How many simple memories of a lovely time.

And I'm in the first chapter of the book and I love it, I wonder if magicians are part of a human being's eternity or just part of single wonderful moment.


Bianka

The words I used to say

Yesterday as I was listening to a song I started to remember the kind experiences that I lived last year, and it was beautiful, I know that I have something to tell to my grandchildren... If I have children hehehe. I realized that most of the times I couldn't enjoy the beautiful moments that I spent with someone special but life is made to be learned. I learned many things about my former relationship and one of these things is that you can't force anyone to do something that doesn't want to do. I realized that I'm not prepared for marriage but that doesn't mean that I believe in concubinage, I believe that you get married when you make a commitment to share your life with someone else, it doesn't matter if you sign a paper or not but the most important thing is commitment, that's what I learned, too. But life goes on and I'm happy having spent good moments with someone special for me, now I'm confident about myself and ready to live my life by my own. I leave you with this video that reminds me a movie night.
 

Bianka

Blond memory

When I was 17 years old I met an interesting guy named David who used to like metal music, he was very nice and he introduced me into the metal world which was amusing. We used to attend metal concerts in our town, it was funny because he was the only one who was blond and the others used to look at him very awkward... Anyway, we got separated, he got married and had a beautiful baby girl and we haven't talked since then. Today I was watching a video of an american singer named Chris Wilson and as I was admiring his hair, because I really like guys with long hair, his style reminded me to David. 5 months ago I was walking in the streets very quickly and suddenly I felt that someone was looking at me, when I raised my eyes I saw David with his cute daughter, he smiled me and I didn't say "hi"  I just kept walking... I don't know why I did that but it was good having seen him. He was part of my "rude metal" moment  and I will always be very thankful to him because he  made know one of my favorite band called Arch Enemy. Sometimes it's good to remember good things of the past.

Here you have the video that I was talking about.


Eat chocolate with chilly! It tastes good!

Bianka

katkera marraskuu

I've been thinking about someone every single day that I just realized that this person became into a stranger, memories are all over my house and in the air I breathe... Sometimes I think all the memories are dreams. These days I've been feeling sad and I wanted to revive something that is dying... I want to cry because nothing is going to be the same and I regret  having been so naive and believing that things would be eternal...  I really want to close a door but it's hard for me to let that person go, I try over and over again  and there is always hope, a bad hope, the path has split and I keep walking behind the past... 

This month is bitter and it's time to let the river flow and keep walking in the forest that I made, it's hard and there is no hope...

Watch this video, I like Harmaja because I love finnish language and I know that I will be there someday.



Kiss in the eye, kiss in your soul.

Bianka

Music that I used to love when I was a teenager

Here are some videos that I used to love watch and listen when I was a teenager

My tastes in music have changed over time but I still love those songs because there are part of my history, when I was a shy girl, when I used to attend the teenager reunion of my church and all the boys and girls used to play the famous game called "The bottle", also I remember my first kiss... It was in a camp and the boy who kissed me was so cute and tender. I always remember that camp :) I had fun when I was a teenager but I would have rather being more confident in that time.

Look for old pictures of you and think about how you've changed in all of this time.

Bianka 
 

The unseen pictures

In april of 2010 my friends Sandra and Shantol, who are from Canada (If you read this post guys, you have to know that I miss you very much and I always remember the good times we spent here), had a party week... It was crazy I couldn't sleep in 4 days, we danced a lot and met some guys... It was horrible! I didn't like any of the guys...  but my friends were totally crushed on them hehehe, sorry guys but this is the ugly thruth and unfortunately there are many pictures of that week, well I do not regret having danced reggaeton, which I hate too much but the problem is that we've never seen those pictures and we don't know what's on them, I wasn't drunk but I remember I was smiling too much.... Why? I really have no idea...

I was laying at bed a little bit sad about something that I just realized  but in that moment I remembered april of 2010 and I started to laugh and I'm curious about what happened with those pictures that were in one of my friend's camera and she has never shown to us... Are they too ugly? What are on those photos?   I hope she hasn't deleted them.

 Drink coffee with vanilla and let the river flow.

Dance with this Charlie Winton video :)




Bianka