You choose

These days my little nephew (He's the one of the picture)  is staying at home, my mom, siblings and me are taking care of him. He's definitely an earthquake!! But we love him so much, he has a strong personality and he cares about everything surround him, but most of the times he wants to be center of the universe and doesn't listen to anyone, but in my house you have to follow the rules.

Today, my nephew asked me something that let me shocked, he asked me about my ex boyfriend, he said that he was worried having not seeing him at home or with me. He said "Where is agustado? Let's call him and invite him to play with us... I said to my little nephew that I was no longer friend with Agustado (That's the way my nephew call my ex) and I can't call him because he's busy and he told me "But aunt, we can wait for him until he's no longer busy" I told him again that he is living in another country and he told me "but I saw him days ago"... I had no words to explain that we broke up and he won't visit to us anymore.

So far it's hard for me when people ask me about my ex boyfriend  because they keep asking why we broke up, so I'm trying to get over this and I don't want anyone in my life until I feel confidence with myself and leave the past behind me. And no, I don't need a boyfriend right now, I know that I'm 25 but I don't care if I don't get marry or if the train will leave me (it's common in my culture to use this phrase "El tren te va a dejar") and I don't want to be with someone that I don't like just because I'm worry to be alone, if I'm going to be alone I will be pleased I did not marry to someone just for the society pressure, I don't feel afraid to be alone, I feel afraid about the ignorance that make people mediocre and frustrated. You choose if you have a boyfriend or a gilfriend, you choose if you want to have a family, you choose if you want to live or die. It's up to you.

Kiss in your soul.

Bianka