No answer

This is a day when I feel a little bit down, I started to think about life and then I decided not think because many voices are telling me what to do in my life, but what do I want? Sometimes, I feel alone because my best friends got married and had children and I feel it's not the same... Maybe it's because they are living another phase in their lives, our priorities have changed and sometimes I don't know what to talk about with them... Right now I'm in a transition to get my indepence, I'm discovering the money issue that implies a salary (lately) And I'm scared about the future, to live my life by my own, to make decisions, so many things are in my head that I can't think... Maybe that's the reason why I feel that the bond that united my friends and I, might have broken...

These are some pictures that I didn't show on the blog and I wanted to show you, the reason why I do this? Well There's no reason I just want to... I know I'm crazy! But I have style! hahaha

Spring is coming and I want a flower crown :)

Bianka

Tails :)

On saturday I went to a goodbye party of my new friend Gabriela, we had fun, ate a lot  of things and had  a good chat. I felt so happy having met interesting people there and I thank God for every single moment of my life. I've been lazy in the past days and I have to practice and study a lot for my toefl exam. And I'm starting to see other paths that will help me to build my future.

Me and my friends.

The delicious dinner.

Gaby, she's a charmer

Me, on sunday, I found these beautiful flowers and  when I arrived to home,I put them in a flower vase.
Bianka

Pretty things inside

Yesterday, I went to a pub called Novecento, it's a nice place where you can watch interesting free movies, you just  have to spend money for your coffee and that's it. The movie that I watched was The pillow book, it's a lovely story about a woman named Nagiko whose name was inspired by a writer of the ancient japanese empire, her name was Nagiko but also they used to call her Sei Shonagon.

The first time I watched The Pillow Book was in 2009, when I was 22 years old and that year was a happy year, I started to write about different topics and it was very amazing how I used to describe every single moment, every single experience, how beautiful was to write about the winds hug or when I used to sit in a simple square looking how the leaves were falling in my head. Oooh in that time I didn't worry about anything, I wasn't looking an eros love and I used to smile a lot.

Yesterday I felt the need to come back to that happines which made me create the most lovely stories never read before. I want to go back to my forest, alone but happy, I want to make my dreams come true, I want to leave the fear behind... I know I will.

 I went to watch that movie with my dear friend Nona.

 Nona, meditating.

 Fish mouth!

We had a delicious pizza and a lovely chat.

Bianka

Whimsical venue

I'm improving my vocabulary and as I was reading an article I found these interesting words, whimsical and venue so, I thought it would be a good idea gather them and make a surreal sentence :)

Yesterday I went to a pub with my friend Nona, we thought it would be a good idea to have coffee and and a nice chat but Nona met her friends who were very nice people, we had fun, we laugh about everything and for the first time I felt released because I wasn't shy to talk to everyone. It was a good time, I  met interesting people and had funny chat :)

So here are some pictures of yesterday.

In the morning, I found these beautiful dark blue birds and I just fell in love with them, so I tried to take a picture but they were moving very quickly.

 Nona, me and Marce, a lovely girl that I met.

 Marce, Dennis, Oscar and Anahí, nice people.

 The funny architects.

Gaby a gorgeous girl who lives in Switzerland.

Move your head and close your eyes, feel the wind in your smile :)

Bianka

An interesting week :)

I didn't write anything on the blog because I've been doing many things this week, I was the substitute teacher of the subject of English in a kindergarten, I worked with 2 years old babies,3 years, 4 years old and 5 years old kids, I worked two days with them but the other days I was preparing my classes and reading about preschool education; this was the first time that I work with kids of that age. It was a nice experience, I really enjoyed it. Here are some pictures about my week since sunday.

The beautiful sunday moon.

 Me on sunday afternoon.

 On monday, I visited my dear friend Amparo who has a cute baby named Nico.

 Nico is 3 months and he's a blessing for his family.

 I took this picture from  Amparo's wedding album. I was her witness on her church wedding. And I'm not catholic hehehe.

 Today I taught the colors in English, then we played to distinguish the colors of  wooden figures.

 After my first class.

 Smile with your eyes :)

Bianka

Pictures of last week

Here are some pictures of the last week, some moments were nice and some were not, this week it's going to be decisive for my future plans, I'm scared but I trust in God. This going to be a lovely week, I know :)

Wednesday was my friend Marisol's birthday, we went to a pub called Casablanca, it was a funny night.

 Me on sunday morning.

 Yesterday my mom, my sister and I went to Acha Theater of my city to watch a performance by BAFOPAZ a folkloric ballet company. I t was very amusing.

Smile and think positive during your constant revolution.

Bianka

Mocha Martinique night

Yesterday night I met with my dear friend Marisol, we talked and talked about many things, it's nice to have a chat with her, she is an amazing girl and the only one who did not judge me when I  broke up with my ex and I apreciate that. She always supports me when I make my decisions and it's good to have such a friend like her. 

Here are some  pictures of my night.

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I ordered a Mocha martinique coffee, it was made with brandy, cinnamon, cocoa and coffee, delicious!

My dear Marisol

Me and Marisol.

It was a good night, we cried, we laughed, we felt released talking about our problems and how we're going to handle them.

Eat peaches with cherries.

Bianka

Enjoy the garden alone

Yesterday I chatted with and old school friend, he asked to me for some advices. He quarrelled with his girlfriend because he was drunk at her birthday party and did a horrible spectacle in front of her friends and family... It was not the first time. My friend was really sad because he wants to change and he loves her girlfriend very much, and he wants to be with her. When he asked me what should he do I didn't know how to answer because right now I don't know anything about relationships, I broke up with my boyfriend 5 months ago and I don't know how to keep a good relationship because I'm so dissapointed about love relationships that I can't give any advice, I don't know if I'm going to have another boyfriend and I'm really confused and I feel that I'm passing trough a crisis. So I didn't give him any advice to make better his relationship with his girlfriend but I told him to analize himself and look for what's the problem in him. I think I'm not good giving advices....

 Today I went to a Café called Espresso, I ordered a delicious Frappuccino with cream and chocolate, I wrote a few things about that moment and also I wrote two paragraphs of my tale. Before I go, I want to publish my thesis and my tale, and I have to hurry up, the year is about to end.

Enjoy the solar eclipse and feel a broken dance.

Bianka 

Erase with white paint

Yesterday I had a party night , it was good but I didn't have fun enough  so I decided today that I won't go out until I get a job URGENTLY! and because I hate to stay all night, after that, you have a shitty day, you feel tired and sleepy. I like to go out and dance with my girlfriends but sometimes I don't like this become a habit... I don't know why... I'm still feeling that I don't belong to anywhere and  the desire to be somewhere else is stronger than ever.

I'm thinking if this will happen sooner or later, I want it sooner!

Here are some pictures of my saturday night

My friend Nona and I. I don't know why I always make faces when they take us a picture.

Me, waiting a cab.

Nona, my sister and Sue, at the bar called Oxid, nice place for going out and the djs are wonderful.

Listen to Arch Enemy, is a death metal band, I listen to them when I feel a little bit sad and I want to forget everything.

Bianka