A Quoi Ça Sert L'amour

Today I watched this lovely video and made wonder what is it love? It's a film by Louis Clichy and the song is performed by Edith Piaf & Theó Sarapo. Have a wonderful week :)  

Bianka

Paper Dolls

When I was a kid I used to play with paper dolls, it was very amusing but at the end I always used to tear the paper dresses hehehe, I was a unusual girl who used to bite Barbies legs... I think that was my protest against the wrong idea about women's body.

So as I was looking for some 60's hairdos I found some pictures about paper dolls, hope you like it.

Kisses :)

Source here

Bianka
 

I believe submarines

This Easter was quiet, I didn't go out and I stayed all day at home cleaning... I know it's boring but in these moments I'm listening to good music and reading some blogs that I love to read.  Here you have some pictures of  yesterday, it was my mom's birthday, my older brother cooked yakisoba and my nephews came to my house to have dinner with us.

 Mi mom.

 My older brother, cooking.

 Me.

 My mom and I.

 Yakisoba!

Happy easter, go camping to the mountains.
Bianka

Music

I have a new cell phone and right now I'm like a monkey trying to understand the touch thing... Cell phones from the past were simple! I'm talking like an old person but sometimes I get mad when I don't know how to use things... hehehhe I'm trying to get focused on my TOEFL test, but I'm distracted by many things and one of them is this cell phone thing! In order to study I'm listenning some good music on soundcloud. Hope you like it :) Bianka

What I found on pinterest

Here you have some lovely pictures that I found on pinterest, most of them reflects what I want right now.

Source: pin2fun17.blogspot.com viaJenny on Pinterest

Source: theglitterguide.com viaPoketo on Pinterest

Source: bloodandchampagne.com viaOH SO PRETTY on Pinterest

Source: zsazsabellagio.blogspot.com viaOH SO PRETTY on Pinterest

Source: tmagazine.blogs.nytimes.com viaRob on Pinterest

Source: metmuseum.org viaHistoire de on Pinterest

Source: Lina on Pinterest

Source: blogg.amelia.se viaLina on Pinterest

Source: mom.me viaPANTONE COLOR on Pinterest

Source: blog.shoppigment.com viaOH SO PRETTY on Pinterest

Source: offbeatbride.com viaLina on Pinterest

Source: reminisce.com viaBeatrice on Pinterest

Talk to the stars their brightness will tell you some secrets.

Bianka

Lazy week

This was a lazy week, my mom traveled to another city, I got sick and I didn't want to anything. But saturday was overwhelming, but I enjoyed it working with the boys and girls of my class, they made interesting murals on ways of evangelism.

Here are the pictures :)

 My sister at a pub.

 Me, thinking what I was going to eat.

 Saturday painting with watercolors.

 The girls made a tiny  church with newspaper.

 They worked with recyclables.

 Smile and eat milk with rice.

Bianka

Poems I love

Today is  the international day of poetry and as a tribute to this day, I leave you  one of my favourite poems.

By the way, I'm not feeling well, I don't want to eat... And I miss my mom, she traveled today to another city and I will be in charge of the housework... Which I don't like but I have to help my mom... But I'm getting tired to stay at home all day....

Here you have a poem by Alfonsina Storni, who was an argentinian writer who committed suicide.

I Am Going to Sleep

Teeth of flowers, hairnet of dew,
hands of herbs, you, perfect wet nurse,
prepare the earthly sheets for me
and the down quilt of weeded moss.

I am going to sleep, my nurse, put me to bed.
Set a lamp at my headboard;
a constellation; whatever you like;
all are good: lower it a bit.

Leave me alone: you hear the buds breaking through . . .
a celestial foot rocks you from above
and a bird traces a pattern for you

so you'll forget . . . Thank you. Oh, one request:
if he telephones again
tell him not to keep trying for I have left . . .

Alfonsina Storni

Have a nice night, drink wine with a a piece of chocolate cake.

Bianka 

Mil luces

Watch this video which is a part of a movie about bolivian dance. The song is performed by Luzmila Carpio and the language of this song is Quechua. Luzmila Carpio is an amazing Bolivian singer who sings from the bottom of her heart, her voice is sublime, her lyrics are beautiful and strong that shows the magic of Bolivian culture. Enjoy it!  

Bianka

New hairdo!

I decided to cut my hair because it's part of my catharsis, I really needed a new look, now I have an interesting bob and I like my new look,  my mom just hate it and some people told me that I look different... And I'm feeling diferent,  released and with good perspectives.

Have  a wonderful week :)

Bianka

Blond memory

When I was 17 years old I met an interesting guy named David who used to like metal music, he was very nice and he introduced me into the metal world which was amusing. We used to attend metal concerts in our town, it was funny because he was the only one who was blond and the others used to look at him very awkward... Anyway, we got separated, he got married and had a beautiful baby girl and we haven't talked since then. Today I was watching a video of an american singer named Chris Wilson and as I was admiring his hair, because I really like guys with long hair, his style reminded me to David. 5 months ago I was walking in the streets very quickly and suddenly I felt that someone was looking at me, when I raised my eyes I saw David with his cute daughter, he smiled me and I didn't say "hi"  I just kept walking... I don't know why I did that but it was good having seen him. He was part of my "rude metal" moment  and I will always be very thankful to him because he  made know one of my favorite band called Arch Enemy. Sometimes it's good to remember good things of the past.

Here you have the video that I was talking about.


Eat chocolate with chilly! It tastes good!

Bianka

The new Hole

Here I am, looking for a part time job, full of volunteer work which I like because I'm going to be busy and I won't have to think in stupid things about feeling depressed. And I don't want to let down to anyone who trusted in me to be part of their project.
And in later posts I'm going to tell you some interesting news about my projects. Here you have good music that I found on soundcloud, hope you like it :) Bianka

Weekend pictures

I started a volunteer work at my church, I am the teacher of a missionary class, my students are boys and girls who are about 7 to 10 years old. They are interesting and everyone has a unique personality that sometimes I don't understand, but the good thing is that I'm trying to not commit the same mistakes that my teachers used to do with me and after a phrase  I say, I analize if I was right or not, I want to show these kids that God is freedom but not religion. There are many things about religion that I disagree that some people think I'm an atheist but I'm not, I believe in God and I know that is inside me. He's my inspiration to fight for real freedom. 

I've been feeling a little anxious and upset about some things in my life, I'm waiting for an answer that is going to take 2 months, I still don't have a job and I'm afraid about being a frustrated person. 

I need to have faith that everything is going to be alright, I know, God will help me. 

Here are some pictures of my weekend. 

My class

The kids drinking a juice and some were drawing.

Me on sunday morning.

A kiss in your eye :)

Bianka

A good debate

I'm still wondering if I ever going to have a real debate, I realized that I'm passive and I only watch all the discussions. Sometimes I feel that I live in a safe bubble and nothing can touch me and when I'm about to get into an interesting talk I feel afraid and say a phrase or one word. If I want to make revolution I must defend what I think with a good base, but sometimes you don't have to start a debate with fools the best way to answer them is with something brief and stupid so they will shut their mouths. It's time to make debates with people who want to help their society through the talks results.
 I'm a little bit sick today but this band is making me feel better. Here you have 3 libras by A perfect circle, hope you like it.


It's time to start your debate and prick the bubble. Hugs.
Bianka

Dots Dots!

I love polka dots, they have something special that appeals me that's why my favorite dresses have polka dots in black and white and in blue and white.

Right now, I'm dreaming with these clothes that I found on modcloth and other vintage online stores.

Source: modcloth.com via Bianka on Pinterest

Source: etsy.com via Bianka on Pinterest

Source: modcloth.com via Bianka on Pinterest

Source: modcloth.com via Bianka on Pinterest

Source: modcloth.com via Bianka on Pinterest

Source: modcloth.com via Bianka on Pinterest

Source: modcloth.com via Bianka on Pinterest

Source: maiedae.blogspot.com via Megsy-Jane on Pinterest

 Sing a french song :)
Bianka

Cooking with Brazilian jazz

Right now I'm cooking Asado en olla, a typical dish of my country and while I'm cutting the vegetables, making the pots dance , I'm listening to this mix. Hope you like it :)

Cardamon Flat Bread & Panang Cashew Spread from Cooking With Coltrane on 8tracks Radio.

He's not that into you

I begin with the title of an interesting movie that I watched yesterday, the intro was my favorite part, it made me think how women make many mistakes with men when they like them.
So I decided to write some kind of advices to those women who have a wrong thought about starting a relationship.Some of these are based on my experiences but most of them are based on other girls experiences. Here we go, let's be cruel:

•  First, if a man treats you like garbage, doesn't care about your feelings, insults you, and he doesn't want to have a serious relationship with you, well, he doesn't love you.
• Stop thinking that all bad treatments you have to put up with it's because "he's confused".
• If he doesn't call you after a "lovely night" it's not because he's too shy or he might be busy, he cares about some important things than you.
• Stop thinking that he will mellow if you're pregnant, because you would commit a huge mistake and the one who is going to suffer a lot is going to be the baby.
• Don't talk about marriage at the beginning of your relationship, he might not be ready to make that commitment neither do you...
• If he tells you he doesn't love you, it's because he doesn't, he's not confused and he's not angry with you, he's just not that into you.
• Even if you have sex with him you have 50/50 percent to marry him or not.
• Don't call him many many times if the answer is always an excuse to not going out with you.
• Don't push him thinking that he could fall in love with you if you chase him all the time.
• Don't be sticky, sometimes those men are not for you, so don't force anything.
• Be yourself and let things happen, you will find a man who loves you and you will love him, he will respect you and he won't use any violence against you, a person who loves you doesn't hurt you.
• Don't think that you have to be with someone just because you're going to be alone. Think what kind of person you want in order to enrich your life.
• Don't be afraid about lonelyness,  being alone it's a choice :)

So I leave you the intro of the movie I watched yesterday.



Bianka

Uncertainty

Source: bella102.tumblr.com via Han on Pinterest

I'm here full of dreams and assumptions, thinking about my future and awaiting an answer that is going to determine the course of the next years. When I was 18 I used to think that when I was 25 years old I would live in another country and I would meet "Piel de hueso" (Bone skin) that's what I used to call to the "man of my dreams"... hehehe It might be hilarious but when you're younger you always create wonderful things about your life.

I'm 25 years old,I'm still living here, loving and hating every single moment and I haven't met Piel de Hueso yet and I don't know if I'm going to meet him, he ocassionally appears on my dreams but I can't see his face I just feel a hug.

I'm waiting for the answer of a University in Europe, I want to study my master degree in another country and that university has an interesting program, I hope they accept me, this is my last chance to study abroad.


Sometimes I think what would I do if they don't accept me and I'm still thinking what I'm going to do... But the only thing that I know is that I'm not going to stay in Cochabamba. If I'm going to stay here I would feel miserable and frustrated, I would start to feel afraid about being lonely and that is worse. Unfortunately I don't have oportunities here, I can't find a job and I need to feel new breezes, new faces, new experiences.

I love my country, but it's not my time to be here, I need to follow my child dreams :)

I need to fight for what I want in  my life.

Bianka