I'm here full of dreams and assumptions, thinking about my future and awaiting an answer that is going to determine the course of the next years. When I was 18 I used to think that when I was 25 years old I would live in another country and I would meet "Piel de hueso" (Bone skin) that's what I used to call to the "man of my dreams"... hehehe It might be hilarious but when you're younger you always create wonderful things about your life.
I'm 25 years old,I'm still living here, loving and hating every single moment and I haven't met Piel de Hueso yet and I don't know if I'm going to meet him, he ocassionally appears on my dreams but I can't see his face I just feel a hug.
I'm waiting for the answer of a University in Europe, I want to study my master degree in another country and that university has an interesting program, I hope they accept me, this is my last chance to study abroad.
Sometimes I think what would I do if they don't accept me and I'm still thinking what I'm going to do... But the only thing that I know is that I'm not going to stay in Cochabamba. If I'm going to stay here I would feel miserable and frustrated, I would start to feel afraid about being lonely and that is worse. Unfortunately I don't have oportunities here, I can't find a job and I need to feel new breezes, new faces, new experiences.
I love my country, but it's not my time to be here, I need to follow my child dreams :)
I need to fight for what I want in my life.
Bianka
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