Erase with white paint

Yesterday I had a party night , it was good but I didn't have fun enough  so I decided today that I won't go out until I get a job URGENTLY! and because I hate to stay all night, after that, you have a shitty day, you feel tired and sleepy. I like to go out and dance with my girlfriends but sometimes I don't like this become a habit... I don't know why... I'm still feeling that I don't belong to anywhere and  the desire to be somewhere else is stronger than ever.

I'm thinking if this will happen sooner or later, I want it sooner!

Here are some pictures of my saturday night

My friend Nona and I. I don't know why I always make faces when they take us a picture.

Me, waiting a cab.

Nona, my sister and Sue, at the bar called Oxid, nice place for going out and the djs are wonderful.

Listen to Arch Enemy, is a death metal band, I listen to them when I feel a little bit sad and I want to forget everything.

Bianka 

Golden saturday night

I had a great time with my friend Nona on Saturday night, we chatted a lot about our lives . 

I was released about something that was hurting me every single day... Sometimes it's not good to be hopeful in someone who feels insecure and doesn't know  what to do with his life, the best thing you could do is to move on with your life, just thinking about you, you can't fix other's existencial problems... It's hard to let someone go but it's the best way not to hurt or embitter. I don't feel guilty anymore, I don't regret all  the things that I've done.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I know what I want, and all I want it's to look for real freedom and enjoy the moments with people who make me happy. I don't know if I'm going to have my own family if I'll meet the man that I want in my life, a man who is confident and is able to share a life with me living in harmony, a man who will work with me in order to help others to have a life in freedom.

I have many projects that I have in mind when I come back and I need someone who supports me in all the things that I want to do and of course I'm going to support him in his dreams and projects. I'm eager to do my master degree in another country and I'm praying it will happen soon.  

I'm not happy but I'm not sad.

Here are some photos of my saturday night.

   

My friend Nona.

We went to a  bar called Oxid, and danced with all the mixes that this Dj made that night.

Dance with the wind and hug the wind.

Bianka