I did it!!

I defended my thesis yesterday, I was really nervous, but I did it, and Gosh I'm really happy about that! it's the first thing I finished in my whole life and that makes me proud of myself!!  All of these days I was pitying of myself, I felt sad, and I was missing someone, but I have to tell you that I feel released and I can see clearly what I want to do in my life. I don't worry about the future, because I know that God has an amazing plan for me. I decided to become existencialist, to live the moment and appreciate the little and beautiful things that happens everyday. Now, I will release the birds that were trapped in the cage I made with all my insecurities. I feel better now.

Here are the pictures of the defense:

I made an ideological analysis to the most representative textbooks of Bolivian education, the intersting thing about my research was that I chose the anarchist ideology to be the principal tool of ideological analysis.

 When I was listenning to the jury.

 With my friends waiting for the score of my defense.

Making the oath.

 It's saturday night do something new at home or go to a Karoke and sing the most horrible songs of all time.

Bianka

I don't need a bomb

And all I want is to be in the next step, I'm frightened, confused, angry and I really need peace... The defense of my thesis is coming, it's really near, this friday I will speak in front a lot of people about the research I've made in these three years, everybody are waiting for that! And I'm blocked, the words are locking in my mouth. I can't concentrate an all I want is to forget everything in my life for this week and  only think  about my defense.

I need flowers and a new sky, I need a hug from myself. I'm disappointed about something and I have to make a decision, but that will be the next week.

Move your heads and send kisses to the stars that are shining in the black velvet sky.

Bianka