There are many things that are disturbing my mind, sometimes, I'm sure with the future that I'll build, sometimes, the fear comes and erase all my projects, I feel lost and I want to cry... I'm feeling desperate and my plans are melting down. Right now, I don't know if I'm going to travel to a near place... The more I want to be in another place the less chances I've got in this time. I think God wants me to stay here for a while, there might be a reason, and when this happen I would have the chance to travel to somewhere. I think this divine desire wants me to start my revolution here, beginning to love what I hate and be free.
I guess I can't runaway from myself... Thanks Massi, after four years I could understand what you were trying to say in that cold night... Man, I'm so sorry having broke our friendship like that...
So I stop worrying to begin a new life in a new place. I decided to begin my emancipation here, I know it would be hard but I realize that I have to make my revolution here, I need to prove myself that I'm strong and independent.
A christian anarchist has borned here and now, full of mixed feelings, looking for her freedom until her end.
So I stay here to learn how to love this place and this moment. Let's see what tomorrow brings for me.
Listen to this lovely band, Guy Fox.
Bianka
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