By myself

Today I feel a little bit nervous because my right hand was trembling, I got scared when I was holding a glass of water and the trembling was still in my hand, it was horrible I started to cry and I tought about many things... So I started to think what would it be if something happens to me, if I have a serious illness and I stay like a vegetal, what would happen? Some people look for life quantity but I look for quality of life. I won't be the same if I can't talk, can't write can't do anything by myself, I prefer euthanasia and that's my choice and my decision. I wouldn't like to tie to any person to help me to live, however, I would take care if something happen to one of my family members or Mister G. I think that's love... Don't you think?


Yes, I know I'm a fatalist person but then I try not to worry about anything. I'm feeling a lot of pressure about the job, I don't know if that school is going to accept my petition to be an ESL teacher but God knows what is going to happen, I can't waste my time going to a place where they don't even know what job is for me...

Bianka