Lesson learned

If you feel that something it's not going to work and your stomach wants to get out through your mouth, you have to listen to these signs because they might be right...

I thought I was getting over  my break up but I wasn't. My friends told me there was a concert in a pub from my city and I thought it was going to be a good idea, but it wasn't, my ex boyfriend was there, his band was performing, I thought it would be cool, because he's a wonderful musician, but I felt uncomfortable there and I think my ex didn't like my presence there, so I told my friends that I wanted to go home,  we got out of that pub, it was an awkward moment; we barely said hi to each other, and when I said goodbye to him, he looked very mad, I don't know why, maybe it's because I deleted him on facebook, and that's because, I want to stop thinking about him, he said he doesn't love me anymore and I need to get over my relationship. I felt so sad, we had almost two years of relationship and we became like strangers...


We both had fault of this break up, it wasn't just mine. I think we're not going to be friends either... He took off the bracelets that I gave to him... I think it's over and I need to move on.

I don't want to have a boyfriend or a lover right now, I don't want to be with anybody, I want to be alone for a long time. I feel so tired to keep thinking that  what would happen if I had not decided to break up with my ex.... But I did and I can't back to the past,  during my relationship I wasn't feeling good, I'd felt ignored and hurted because he didn't realize that some things that he used to do or he used to say hurted me and I hadn't said anything just because I didn't want to be annoying...

So, I have to stop feeling anxious and depressed. It's horrible, I look like Loca de mierda ,a vlog serie that I talked before, hahaha. Anyway, I need to be wise and follow that little voice inside me. 

And I need to get an scholarship for my master degree!! The university that I was applying didn't answer my e mail...

If you believe in God pray for me and if you don't send me good vibes.

Bianka